Sunday, August 22, 2010

messages from mom

Today, thinking about Mom, I did a google search on her name.
I was surprised to find to feedbacks that Mommy left on one of her favorite sites, a little less than a year before her passing.
One of the feedbacks was a general thank-you message.
The other sent shivers down my spine.
A short feedback, but she talks about her illness, and how she's contemplating chemotherapy.

"It's hard for me to say that there is no choice... not deciding is also a decision... We are able to decide, but we do not know what is good for us... We have to do our best... to say say that there is no choice - that's succumbing to despair."
 
So much like my mother.
She fought almost till her last day. 

May her memory be blessed.

Mom is gone

It's been a few months, but I've haven't the nerves to write about it since.
Mom is now in heaven.
Her last few weeks were very tough, for her and for the family.
At least now she isn't suffering anymore.

The void is hard.

I try not to show, but here and there I still break down and cry.

Mommy - I miss you so!